mambo-jumbo

hai hai hai blogger. (while signing in, i nearly forgotten what's my password. WHUD UP)

here's a little update of my fruitful life so far.

1) exams are over and holidays are here!

2) internships are coming soon and i hope everything goes on well and smoothly.

3) ballet exams are drawing near. and i'm not even prepared. ok, im scared as shit.

4) i wanna watch soooo many. yes i am movie deprived, seriously.

5) i finally sorted out my feelings for everything. (almost, everything)

6) i thank God for all the friends that i have now. <3

7) i'm revamping my room. not w Neon lights, but pretty pictures and pollies.

8) CAN'T WAIT FOR PICNIC W MY GIRLSSSSS.

so, as you can see. My life's been pretty well i would say. One of the best moments I had ever, since secondary school.

Ever since poly life started, i realised i got closer to my mum and dad. meeting them for dinner, chatting about my life and getting advices from them. Esp my mum. Lurv her xoxo

Been on tumblr often. Reading about all the "love" posts made me feel that actually there are many people having much worse-off situations than me. that really made me feel grateful for the family, friends and everything i have. hahah, i think i'm starting to get sentimental. LOLOL.

anyway, ive learnt something. "You lived for more than a decade w/o this guy, surely you would be able to live w/o him now."

hopefully everyone going thru a breakup, or heartbreak would be strong enough to go thru all these. xoxo, have faith.

A whole new world

School's been good these few days, although i'm starting to get dreadful with all the lectures and assignments. :(

I must say, Poly is really an eye opener for me. I get to meet people from all walks all life. When i mean all, it includes gays, lebanese and etc.

I'm not against them, instead I think they're really cool and special people. Support the PinkDot!

They dare to stand up for themselves, which is really daring.

Scholarship interviews are driving me crazy. It's the last and final round this Wednesday. i really hope I would get it. :( at least to make my parents proud of me. :D

My mum is really wonderful. She stands by me and never gives up on me despite the dreadful results I got during my secondary school days. I'm really grateful for that. :)

And also my grandma, she's been the one taking care of me since I was an infant. I want her to be happy and see me in my graduation robe. Not forgetting my grandpa too.

I'm getting too sentimental aren't I?

Have a great weekend everyone!

high cheek bones.

hi all! i realise it's been ages since i've updated this daed space of mine. been wanting to retrieve it long ago. just that i was just TOO lazy.

meet my IZZIT gang up there. haha, inside joke! but it's really funny when Mardy does it..

haha, gg.com i'm giggling to myself now.

SCHOOL'S BEEN PRETTY FINE I WOULD SAY!

assignments are pilling up, and so is the stress! LIKE A MOUNTAIN YO~

went for the scholarship interview today. hopefully i can make it though. hope all the last on-the-spot-thinking helps a lot... :( have faith Nicole!

and everyone who is currently taking MYE now, including my sister.

Mother's day is around the corner...hmmm, what shall i do? hehe <3

maybe bake a cake for her? or do a card for mum? dilemma!

i cannot wait to have attachments to various industries! sorry for that abrupt change of topic, it's 1236am. hehe, well i'm suppose to be asleep!

and today i feel weird and bloated.

god bless everyone, PS: the election fever is seriously HOT!

don't go breaking my heart,

they say life is full of choices.

following your heart is hard sometimes, and it's ok not to be ok sometimes.

why does a breakup have to be hard?

how can you appear to be nonchalant about everything, when my life is squeezing the shit out of me? they say love is not game. but why do i feel that you're player?

all i wanted was for you to fight for me? was it so hard?

you think by not talking to me, everything would appear fine. leaving it all to me, clearing the doubts i have in my mind, in the end telling me that change took over?

do you have any idea how much i'm going through? hell no.

Tumblr

I'm not getting back again.

Hi all.

Here to update this dead space of mine.

School's starting in a week, I know I ought to get ready and be prepared. But, hell no.

I'm still working, working my ass out. I don't know why, maybe just to shut myself from the utmost realistic world. Been meeting people from my new school. Hanging out with really great people. Gossiping never fails to cheer me up <3

I realised that we should all concentrate on the things that make us happier in life. Not those that we are all dwelling so deeply on. It makes one happier, and satisfied with life.

Friends by my side never fail to cheer me up. Of course, there are many friends whom I disputed with and ended up being nothing. Regretted it? Hell yes.

We all make mistakes. We are humans after all.

I get by with life working and hanging out with friends.

Till today, I saw you. I thought I wouldn't get affected by it since it's been so long.

I thought I've forgotten and let it go. But, I still felt sad when I saw you just now.

Why? I don't know. Life's unfair sometimes.

Even though, what I saw was only your backview. I'm very sure it was you.

On a happier note, school's starting soon, which means I'll meet new people and get you off my mind asap. Not talking to you really helps moving on faster. But then again, why shouldn't we talk since we are friends? Contradicting much?

Trying to forget, but it doesn't make it all ok.

It's been so long, I'm tired of being strong.

how many times will i take to get it right?

there are too many choices in life to make.

too many risks to take. to many sacrifices to make.

and in fact i'm really broken inside.

A brand new beginning.

Hi all. I hope you all had an enjoyable day today.

Went to the school to purchase my new MacBook yesterday. Happygirl123.

The functions are pretty well. I love the trackpad! (that's what Apple calls it.weird? yes i know) It has many lovely features in it. One finger for smthg. Two fingers for scrolling. Three fingers for back and forth. Four fingers to get an overview of everything. It's like using less energy for the same amount of work you do in other ordinary computer. Haha.

I must say that I was pretty reluctant to purchase the macBook as I was the one paying for it. So yeah. I'm sure all of us have read the news that tsunami has strike again... poor japan. i really do sympathize them yknow. Them being one of the fastest city in the world, now all to dust and nothing. And Sg has only sent 5 dogs and 5 humans. WTF. seriously la, Sg is small, but surely we can afford to send more than that right -.- I pray that all the Japanese there would be alright. Safe and sound. Hoping that the death roll will not rise again...

Mum bought a new cammy today at the IT fair. It was crazy and squeezy. LIKE A PACK OF SARDINES, literally.

But the bargains were really reasonable though. Comes with many free gifts and thumbdrives.

My mum even managed to bargained for a free battery. Wonder how she does bargaining so well. Prolly it's in the women's genes. Haha. Maybe I will be like that someday. Muhaha. k I feel evil. But seriously, it doesn't harm me having thoes kind of genes since it's helpful...

People say that the world is gna end soon. (ever since the events that had happen to japan)

Is it true? I somehow don't think it is. I somehow think it is. Yes, imma contradictor.

I hope by the time the world ends, I would have confessed all my feelings to the person I love so that I live with no regrets.

I really don't know what to do. Charles isn't here in Sg, so idk who to turn to when I need advices. :( Charles Charles Charles, come back plxxxxx.

sometimes i feel like a fool waiting and holding onto smthg that is not gna happen.

do you even mean it when you said sorry and you didn't appreciate me?

how come i don't feel that you're apologetic at all...i feel so stupid to keep thinking that you would still be part of my life. as soon as i move on, your long and emotional text comes along. what are you trying to say? are you fighting to keep me by your side? cos' i dont feel it.

i feel like giving up on everything. every fuxking thing.

i'm tired of fighting to keep you by my side. cos' in the end, after every sorry you make. it'll all be back again. those stupid feelings and the tingling butterflies i would get whenever i see your text. i hate the way you talk to other girls. i admit. i hate the way i care so much about you. i hate the fact that i'm still jealous when you're with another girl.

argh nicole. wake up. he doesn't care, why should you?

live your life. do your parents proud. survive poly. it's a brand new beginning after all.